I have wanted to write for such a long time but the circumstances of life would not allow me to do so. There has been much to anticipate and discover throughout the summer. I feel as though God has allowed me to be so busy to keep my hope renewed in Him. I am still having those dreams which seem so real but wear me out for the next day. The dreams are as simple as Landen and I walking around the Fargo Walmart ALL NIGHT long! Simple but emotionally and physically draining as I awake to discover Landen is not here let alone walking
the earth and I feel as though I did not sleep one minute. With that I am still somewhat glad to have the dreams.
So, I have been going here and there with the kids at church and with other friends. I never really anticipated so much activity but I am grateful for every bit of it. Right before my birthday I received the grand opportunity to venture to Chicago and see my sister in law. In the airport I took out my laptop for abit but I had to put it away because my emotion was too stirred…
All I wrote: The airport is always an amazing place to think and watch people. Tonight I am in Charlotte, NC. I am on my way to Chicago to see Joyanna. It seems so strange to be going to see her without going to see Landen…still. It kind of makes me think of that October day I had to meet her in Albany.
Landen would have been so proud of both of us because neither one of us cried the entire weekend! It felt so warm to be together. We did everything the way we would have if he would have been around. We went from site to site squeezing in coffee shoppes along the way. Although Landen should have been there with us, between the two of us it felt like he was there.
Landen was always super at making anyone feel special. He threw the greatest surprises and got the best unexpected gifts, as I mentioned before in earlier posts. This year’s birthday reminded me of the year he put together a caravan of our friends and planned an entire day to St. Louis. We needed one more person to fill a spot so my friend, Kimberly and I chose Joyanna. I remember feeling awful because she didn’t get to ride with us and she HAD to ride in the passenger seat with Landen. What we did not know is this was a DIVINE OPPORTUNITY! Joyanna and Landen had the opportunity to get to know one another and liked what they discovered.
The entire day was beautiful. We took the metro all around the city. We found ourselves at Union Station, shopping downtown, eating at the Spaghetti Factory, playing cards at humungous park and viewing the ever spectacular Arch. While walking toward the arch my cousin Stephen and Landen rushed up behind me and hoisted me upon their shoulders as Landen loudly announced to the surrounding crowds of people that it was my birthday. “Attention EVERYONE! We are celebrating Larissa’s birthday!”. Then they all sang. This was my 22nd birthday.
This year I celebrated 28 years. It has now been 2 birthday’s Landen has missed but I am forever thankful for every other birthday he was present for.
When I go home I saw my bear sitting now on my dresser so that Mr. Bently can not reach it and I dared to press the furry little hand.
“Larissa, I love you so much. You are the best sister that anyone could ask for and my best friend. I want you to have a Happy Birthday and I want you to know that I will always be there for you.”
the earth and I feel as though I did not sleep one minute. With that I am still somewhat glad to have the dreams.So, I have been going here and there with the kids at church and with other friends. I never really anticipated so much activity but I am grateful for every bit of it. Right before my birthday I received the grand opportunity to venture to Chicago and see my sister in law. In the airport I took out my laptop for abit but I had to put it away because my emotion was too stirred…
All I wrote: The airport is always an amazing place to think and watch people. Tonight I am in Charlotte, NC. I am on my way to Chicago to see Joyanna. It seems so strange to be going to see her without going to see Landen…still. It kind of makes me think of that October day I had to meet her in Albany.
Landen would have been so proud of both of us because neither one of us cried the entire weekend! It felt so warm to be together. We did everything the way we would have if he would have been around. We went from site to site squeezing in coffee shoppes along the way. Although Landen should have been there with us, between the two of us it felt like he was there.
Landen was always super at making anyone feel special. He threw the greatest surprises and got the best unexpected gifts, as I mentioned before in earlier posts. This year’s birthday reminded me of the year he put together a caravan of our friends and planned an entire day to St. Louis. We needed one more person to fill a spot so my friend, Kimberly and I chose Joyanna. I remember feeling awful because she didn’t get to ride with us and she HAD to ride in the passenger seat with Landen. What we did not know is this was a DIVINE OPPORTUNITY! Joyanna and Landen had the opportunity to get to know one another and liked what they discovered.
The entire day was beautiful. We took the metro all around the city. We found ourselves at Union Station, shopping downtown, eating at the Spaghetti Factory, playing cards at humungous park and viewing the ever spectacular Arch. While walking toward the arch my cousin Stephen and Landen rushed up behind me and hoisted me upon their shoulders as Landen loudly announced to the surrounding crowds of people that it was my birthday. “Attention EVERYONE! We are celebrating Larissa’s birthday!”. Then they all sang. This was my 22nd birthday.
This year I celebrated 28 years. It has now been 2 birthday’s Landen has missed but I am forever thankful for every other birthday he was present for.
When I go home I saw my bear sitting now on my dresser so that Mr. Bently can not reach it and I dared to press the furry little hand.
“Larissa, I love you so much. You are the best sister that anyone could ask for and my best friend. I want you to have a Happy Birthday and I want you to know that I will always be there for you.”
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